Shifting To The Left Brain

Lists. They seem to be predominant in my mind lately. The only way to get some semblence of control over the huge project of traveling for 8-9 days to a foreign country and leaving 4 children behind is to have lists (which do not come naturally to me). Details drive me NUTS! Especially when they're needing to be outlined carefully with great precision, so as not to forget some grand all-important detail that could knock the whole thing down (my biggest fear). So, I guess I'll start with one list at a time, and go from there. Which one to start with, I'm not sure. This morning I made a small list of things we need folders and small files for, and I'll be purchasing those today. Then I'll be trying to find a more comfortable place for my printer than the floor in the far back room of our basement. I need to print out some ready-made lists from our agency and other more adept parents, and actually "file" those. I'm so organizationally challenged, so these events are a great oppotunity for growth. I have "lists" on the brain so severely that I dreamt about them last night. I kept seeing myself sitting in a cold classroom in a peach school desk, checking off boxes on lists. I can't hardly get my eyes to focus, and my head starts hurting. When I get a list checked off and pick up the paper, there always appears a new page under that one, and so forth. They're neverending, and I have an overall sense of frustration and panic by the time I wake up. I will just have to think of this as excellent exercise for my left-brain, a part of my body that's obviously flabby and in need of work. Seriously, my left brain probably resembles Jello. Like most ADD minds, I will eventually kick into "hyperfocus mode" and won't be able to stop the lists....in that mode I become obsessive and anything getting in my way is shoved aside. It's not always a comfortable state to be in, but it's very productive. Here goes!